Its been about a week since I last posted.
Well things have greatly changed between LoveisEvol, Crunchymama, and myself. After reading her thread and her post here, I began feeling very guilty about the boundaries me and my Hubby put into place. I also knew that I was not ready to lift the boundaries though
So I told my husband that I needed a break from him and her (basically the whole situation). My husband was not comfortable with me breaking away from him, so we broke it off with our metamour. It was diffiuclt for me to do, but I felt I was causing her more hurt....and that if I severed ties she could move on and heal. My husband still has contact with her though (He does not see her anymore, but they do talk and communicate through Facebook.
Me and her were facebook friend, but she deleted me as her friend, so I have no way of interacting with her, other than to call (and I just CAN'T call her).....because I know I can't accept her as my husbands secondary in this time in my life right now. I do want her in our lives, but not to the extent it was.....as friends and no more.
I miss her, but I don't feel good about contacting her. Not because of hate between us (I believe we can get past that)....but because of the fact that she and my husband betrayed and hurt me so bad (they had an affair behind my back for 5-6 months).
Any thoughts? Maybe there is nothing to do at all, but feel the way I feel and continue to move on, right???
Maybe we will meet again in this life or the next???
Have any of you felt this way, or know about this type of situation???
I hope all is well with you guys