So I've decided to stay. I have a need to be here, even if I can't do much if I'm here I can do a little. Every time I thought of going away for the weekend I just ended up upset at the idea. I'm going to be happier here. No point in going away for a relaxing weekend if I can't relax. There will be other weekends after all.
Everything will be ok in the end. If it's not ok it's not the end.