You are feeling pretty low right now I can tell. I felt pretty hopeless at the beginning too but now 8 months in and my marriage is better than ever.
I am not self-delusional, it really is better.
My wife has told me many times that she wants to grow old with me, she never wants us to split up.
I feel more valued than ever before and we both feel the marriage is alive and secure. So much so that I have a hard time finding smething to write about on here lately.
The first two months were a bitch but we kept on working at it and removing every obstacle one by one.
Don't give up.
"The secret of life, though, is to fall seven times but to get up eight times"