Well I think what I need is changing. I was going to post about what I've expected throughout our lives together. But I don't really even know that. I didn't expect poly-amory, I can tell you that. ; )
I think I need them to slow the F down. Even if I were to be selfish, I don't want him not to be with her. Now, to be honest and mono, I want him not to want her...but I can't make that happen.
So the next best thing is to take all of this slowly and see what happens. But I'm not sure how much they will slow down. And how much they will resent me for it.
To quote an Ani DiFranco lyric 'i try to draw the line, but it ends up running down the middle of me most of the time'