....that I really appreciate all your support, understanding, and insight.
I am in a horrible place right now
I am going through what BlackUnicorn says .....I am nursing bitterness (taking a slow and painful killing poison myself, while praying someone else dies from it)
I have hate for his secondary, and anger toward her and my husband for what they have done to me
I am not going to post threads for a while....because I don't want my involve here to be centered on negativity (but it is all I have to give right now)
As for as healing goes, only time will tell right.....I know many of you said that going numb is not a good idea....and that meds may be a bad idea too.
Well that is the only thing I can do right now :9
These are the only things a can do the escape the nightmare I am in.
Hopefully in the future there are brighters days ahead
I'll keep reading and responding to others post though, I hopes to help them when ever possible.
Thank you again