Hello Conchordian. Welcome to the forum. Let me start, as my good friend Charlie is fond of, by saying that at anytime I could be full of shit. That said, I'm sure you and I are facing some very similar challenges. If you need an ear, feel free to PM me.
This was me in '09.
This was me last November.
This is me today.
This journey is a tough one, but just by virtue of the fact that you are here, your heart is in the right place. Best of luck to you.