Fidelia, thank you for your kind words. They nearly brought tears to my eyes. I know that more than anything, the children come first. Never having felt that I came first in either of my parents lives, I would never, not even contemplate, getting in the way of that for W or anyone that I love. I also believe in karma and I know that by allowing love to dictate this situation, love will bless me in return at some point. Actually, in pondering that further I must share that I know I am already blessed with love. My hubby, C, is an amazing man full of love, compassion and understanding. He's even sad at the thought of losing W but also understands that his love for them comes first. We can only hang in there and wait until he makes his decision. Patience is a virtue, right?