I think that you have a good concept of what you need to do. That's awesome, that's a great first step.
Now, it's time to put it into action.
It's not necessary to always share with us pretty flowers and success. It's ok to share the hard parts too.
God knows I wish I could share MORE flowers and success. Maybe someday!
Even though you don't feel like playing the piano-It would make my day if you played Moonlight Sonata for me. That's my favorite-and I can only play the first 15 stanzas (not much huh). Someday I'll have a piano so I can learn to play instead of just memorizing a few pieces.