Originally Posted by SNeacail
Don't be so hard on yourself. A few months ago, is not that long ago. Read through some of the blogs, you are not the only one on this rollercoaster, people who have been on this ride for years are still struggling. I'm not saying that you won't find the peace you need, just don't beat yourself up about needing that extra reassurance now and again.
I have read a lot, like I said, i know this isn't going to fix itself tomorrow. its just a very hard road to walk sometimes. It does make me feel better when I read and see that I am not alone. I am glad to have a place like this where I can reach out for support without getting some of the attacks that I get from most people about how horrible she is for asking this of me, and how stupid I am for even trying it. I just worry about needing the reassurance more than she can give. 4 kids, she's got a full plate already without me adding too it. I know that she is going to try, but I don't want her to burn out.