Originally Posted by Derbylicious
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Vulnerability has been on my mind a lot lately. I have a hard time showing my vulnerable side to a lot of people. I don't want people to think that I'm in some way weak, but I'm coming to realize that it's not weakness that I'm hiding but rather my humanity.
I have a fear that people, especially those who I don't know or don't know well will think less of me if I'm not perfect. The thing is that the people who's company I most enjoy are people who are authentically who they are and who aren't afraid to be that person.
I'm human I make mistakes, some of them big ones. But on the other hand I can also be the person to make that little bit of a change in someone's world to make their life just that little bit better. It doesn't have to be all or nothing. Even though I'm not all good all the time doesn't take away from the good that I do do.
My best friend's partner has gained respect from me by being who she is and telling me what her fears were about me. It took a lot of courage for her to speak to me about it but the end result is absolutely positive. I'm going to try to remember that when I'm afraid of rejection or not being good enough when I'm talking to someone.
By being human you allow others to be human too. The more we open ourselves up and are vulnerable to each other the more we will be able to see ourselves in others and embrace the imperfection of being human. No more striving to be and appear perfect when being perfectly imperfect will suffice.
I saw your thread and thought I would try to post. First thanks again for the help. Now to your fear of others see you as perfect or whatever, you must be very young and thats good thing. The reason I say that is because the older I get the less I care what people think. With in reason . Now I should write the disclaimer. Like hair color or my clothes cars I drive bullshit stuff. I as soon as I started typing my words of wisdom I quickly thought well most everything except the poly.. I know what a fucking ass. yup