I've been lurking here for over a month now, and i felt compelled to finally say something, but this post isn't about me. you have my sincerest, and heartfelt sympathy. i know this can't be easy in any way,shape or form, but from what i've seen you, Mono, and the Hubby are definitely strong enough to get through this. i have no doubt that things will get better. keep you chin up!