He wants things to be fair and he wants to be happy for me but im not sure his heart can take it yet.
I guess I also worry that if I tell J he won't feel the same way. I haven't had to deal with rejection in many years. If we were to date he would have to eventually fond someone that can give him everything he needs in life. I can't expect that he will just happen to fall for someone who is willing to share him with me. I am sure there are more fears that I haven't figures out yet. I will take time to figure this all out before doing anything thing else that will turn my world upside down.