I'm working on getting my competitive streak under control. Not everything has to be about having the most or being first. Am I happy with what I have in my life? Yes, absolutely. Do I honestly have the time/energy/effort to put into another relationship? No I don't. Which leaves me wondering why I feel the desire to be pursued. Is it just because others around me are being pursued?
Sometimes I feel all messed up in the head. On one hand I really want to know that I'm attractive and that there are people who want to be with me (regardless of if I want to be with them or not). And on the other hand if I'm approached by anyone where anytime in the first few meetings anything sexual is brought up I feel like all I am is a body to them and I write them off right away.
It's time to stop looking at what others have again and start to focus on what I have. I'm happy and satisfied with where I am and who I am, the rest of it just doesn't matter.
Everything will be ok in the end. If it's not ok it's not the end.