CDarklock - thanks for your comment and I totally respect your view. I have learned to accept that people view things much differently. You have to understand that this post is about me specifically and what goes through my mind and heart. Another monogamous person in the same situation might have a completely different outlook. I accept that as truth.
As an example, some people can aproach sex simply as a fun activity that can be very intense and energy filled. I certainly did until I tried it from that perspective. It didn't work for me..the key is it didn't work "for me".
Thanks again and take care.