I don't know why I keep comparing it to the other guy. Perhaps it is because i am in a situation that isn't in my comfort zone.
I do enjoy her company a lot; even if we are not doing much like we're playing video games or whatever. And think about her when she's not with me. Even now I am.
i do agree that learning is important, but I am struggling with the last 30 years of conditioning that I have had. I am so confused.