Sorry to hear how frustrating it has been for you. It is tough to hang one's hopes on something that you know in your heart of hearts will never get better. Been there. It sounds, though, that you have sorted things out clearly. It seems you have not been respected as much as you deserve, and that taking a break from the relationship will be good for you and a positive way to start the new year. I wish you the best.
The world opens up... when you do.
Oh, oh, can't you see? Love is the drug for me. ~Bryan Ferry
"Love is that condition in which another person's happiness is essential to your own." ~Robert Heinlein