I don't think I wanted an question answered more I just wanted to get some positive feedback to help with my mood on this since I am un sure how to feel....lol so yeah maybe it should be somewhere else.
sorry about that i am still new to the forums and I am not sure where all everything goes. Really I just wanted to share my experience that is going on right now and get a lil bit of friendly support from others.
or know if anyone had gone through anything similar.
but did not aim to confuse and I apologize if I did.