Might I suggest sourgirl that much of your discomfort could be due to the fact that your relationship with Ari is long distance and you simply haven't had enough long time together, and haven't been together all that long.
I'm much like you in that I don't like much physical interaction. With my men though it took about a year to feel entirely comfortable with showing affection to one, then the other and both at the same time. Most of the time I don't show anyone affection publically.
Derby I feel a bit more comfortable more quickly, but pull away from anything but holding hands. Recently there was a friend taking pictures at a party. She had people go under the mistletoe to get a picture taken. I was very uncomfortable and awkward. A lot of the people there were fine with it, but I wasn't. Its kind of a lack of control thing somehow or its to intimate.
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