thanks Eklctc...
Mono thought of my postion tonight of one where I am in a beautiful pasture and love where I am at. Feel right here, there is space beyond that worth discovering but not an option.
I see it as like the movie "its a wonderful life." I watched it for the first time the night after I saw Leo. I feel like the man in the movie... I have everything but I was meant to be a great explorer. The world is out there and although I have something wonderful, every now and then I push to break out of it just for a bit to explore...
I am back to my pasture and feeling safe in it and content tonight.
Mono and I had another good talk, Leo emailed to tell me that I mean more to him than sex and now we know where the boundary is we can go back to not pushing it...
I'm good, he's good, Mono is good. It sounds like Leo's wife is good being okay with what ever we decide and that is all I need to top off my week... until next time.