Originally Posted by NeonKaos
I haven't read this closely, but at some point I will go back and do so.
It sounds like you are putting a lot of effort into this whole "polyamory" business, and I am sure you will benefit from the personal growth experience this is providing. Remember that the "war" you will be winning is that you will be at peace and at ease with YOURSELF, and you will gain by maximizing the advantages of all the relationships you find yourself in from now on. You seem to be sincerely dedicated to treating yourself and your SO's respectfully, which is all that anyone can ask.
thanks... I'm just doing the best I can