I think for me personally that it was a bit of both. I loved two people before I even knew that it had a name. It felt natural..yet confussing for me. Confussing because of the "expectation" Of only being "allowed" to love one person. Yet I was able to love two people in and amazing way. It took time to process that it was "ok" even. Guess you could even say I tried not to be Poly. But failed. A Steak is still a Steak..even when dressed as a salad.
I donít get many things right the first time
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here...
And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know that I am
I am, I am
~ Ben Folds five ~