Our world is much different now. We have been writing on here almost from the beginning and are very active here. I invite you to read about our story by looking through our threads and posts...
I can't say I understand what you are going through, but I am reading it and Mono and I are talking about it... as we do most threads.. thanks for posting. good luck.
(I was particularly interested in your comment about cheating in a sexual way meant you likely would not feel the same way. A topic I am interested in in my own journey