This difficulty has been awesomely exhausting. I have learned so much about myself in the last few weeks, it's humbling. Not the least of which is that difficulty is always an opportunity for growth.
And as today is Thanksgiving, I offer thanks to this community, my endlessly loving wife, my family (this includes you) and this big, crazy, unknowable spirit of love that has always been in my life and I'm only just now learning to appreciate properly.
Concern yourself less with love and more with loving.