According to what Master originally told me i was to have 1 to 2 years with Him alone in which to learn how to trust as He knows trust is a really hard thing for me.
i was to have a say in who came into the relationship and how quickly the relationship moved along.
This was all happening until an slave He had been thinking of collaring returned to Edmonton. i agreed to explore with her and then everything else went out the window or at least that is the way i am feeling.
i would never have explored with another poly Master under any other circumstances. As i said my experience in the past has been negative but i have also read and heard enough positive to be partially open. i just need to know if i am over reacting.
i know some of it probably is but this feels like the past and i am trying...struggling really hard to keep an open mind and trust.