** Another thing I hate, but this about me.... That I can see what is happening when she can't. P is falling for her/ or already all in. She is all his for the next 4 months, and his feelings for her a becoming evident in that new environment. I'm not sure if she is there yet, but she very easily could over the next few months.
** I don't like it, but it isn't up to me. Adapt or be left behind
** Their relationship will flourish while I am gone, and that scares me. I keep praying that I won't fuck ours ip anymore than I already have. I need to find a way to help our love stay lit while I an gone.
** *What an odd thing, to be chasing your wife of 13 years. I fight against it, because I don't want to be clingy. I hate clingy. I'm not sure how to act when I feel that need for her with the fear of losing her at the same time.*
** *It is those moments when I freak and do things I regret.*