I'm bi but i'm a pro in any definition. i'm 26...i messed around with my best friend when were like 8 or 10 or something. I thought a few guys were cute in school but never did anything. I even knew a few gay guys but they were way too flamboyant for my taste. In college i learned that guys go to porn book stores to hook up...i'm in las vegas so we have a lot. I did that infrequently(maybe 2 or 3 times a year) for a while until i decided it was dangerous and irresponsible.
My first real experience was with a guy and his girlfriend for 9 years, and me and my g/f. He was akward around me though and never let any walls down...unfortunately his g/f did, drama ensued and now he left his girl who is in love with me
He was the first one I had real sex with too...it was kind of amazing. I thought we got along but she told me later he always thought I was an idiot (...he's a nuero surgeon, but not THAT smarter than me...a computer nerd).
now me and my girlfriend swing and vegas isn't that liberal of a place and it's hard to find Bi men to meet. Not to mention swinging doesn't really help the odds of finding a emotional relationship with a man.
i'm often fettered with thoughts of my bisexuality, of being with a man. what's it like? What will i feel? will it be better cause most men are thinkers and not feelers? lol In all seriousness everyday that goes by and wonder about it more and more. I really want to have a meaninful intimate relationship with preferably a bi man because I can relate more, but...i don't know if it'll ever happen :/