The topic, whether a random thought or not is relevant and interesting.
Looking back over my past relationships, I recognise that I was in fact 'choosing my family', I didn't extend it to developing those (additional to my primary) relationships sexually as that option to me wasn't an option - it wasn't even a thought in my head, a wish in some cases yes, but an actual real option - NO.
Now that I know heart and soul that it IS an option - I can't switch it off. It is right, It is meant to be, it just IS...
Its as if I have gone through my life with blinkers on... now they are off and I can finally see everything, I am free to be me.
Smile! It makes people wonder what you've been up to
Engaged to my sweetheart, WaterWolf