Thanks to all
I appreciate - what I see as support. I have never been ont to shy away from direct communication... well let's say I say things that I think are heard. I talked with him the other day and told him I was feeling particularly romantic and in love with him... and that I wanted him to go see her. It was even difficult for me to ay that - and I felt so much better after... three days later he said "So have you thought more about it?" HELLO.... I wasn't thinking more about it - I have thought about it for ages before I said something.... that bothered me most. My plan today was to leave before they got up - but that didn't work... I did get them to go somewhere without me and will be woking on my own day plans now.... I like to think I am a strong person - but I still made breakfast!
I'm a work in progress....