thanks redpepper. yes, much of what you say is the case. we talked alot tonight. i cancelled our date at first, but then asked him to come over. he has just started to say i love you. i am going to see others as well. he is very protective of all in his life, his wife, me, his children, my children. for him, this is all new. for me, i've been around the block a few times.
lol, but, i still adore him, and i have a feeling that i will have to occupy what little time i have w/ him, for other people. it's bittersweet. it's ok. i hope u r well this evening.