Originally Posted by JRiverMartin
Seriously, set aside some quiet time; maybe even keep a pencil and paper handy..., and look very carefully at what's going on within you. Think of it as an archaeological dig. Find burried thingies down there, carefully -- don't damage them! Dust them off with care and compassion and curiosity and patience. Then examine the mysterious thingies until you know them well.
Well said JRM, this is what I was trying to elude to.... time for a good dig, we so seldom make time for this in our lives. You have just been given this time. I can tell you, the change in my husband is remarkable. He was given a gift in a way. and therefore so was I in the form of my pride and continued respect and admiration for his spirit and ability to better himself on his own terms.