Hi, I've read the OP a few times and was hesitant to add anything, due to my newness to this lifestyle. However, in re-reading it again, what I see is that you don't really respect the women in your life as well as you think you do. I would venture to say you might not respect yourself much, either. Additionally, you're afraid of losing both of them, but the way you put it makes them sound like possessions rather than people who are important to you. Plus, you have painted the picture that the whole mess is their faults and you're just a hapless victim trying to have what you want. That's a bit icky.
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Last edited by nycindie; 11-11-2010 at 02:41 AM.