gwendolyn, that is so bittersweet. howdo you know that once u are divorced (i hope i read that correctly) that u and he can't build a future together.
i understand about the kid thing tho. at 46...i'm 40 something too...u don't want to start making babies again.
i admire your strength, bcz it must be hard...sounds like you're in limbo.
can you talk to him more about the future, there may be other solutions? he may not be comfortable in a mono relationship w/ another woman down the line.
i wish you the best. affairs of the heart.