I'm glad venting about this complicated situation gave you some clarity, GC. There's a lot going on here: heart condition, weight gain, OCD causing distaste for body fluids, polyamory, multiple partners who are both sexual and non-sexual...
BTW, have you been formally diagnosed with OCD, and are you receiving treatment?
Originally Posted by girlcaleb
side note: he is more into kissing, giving and receiving oral sex, four play, romantic stuff.
I am more into D/s, spanking, being controlled. He does not like to do these things with me.
It sounds like you've found a kind of sexual play you like, that doesnt involve body fluids such as saliva (found in kissing), or semen (resulting from giving him oral). You like kink play that doesnt involve orgasm? How about trying kinky play parties which have a no fluids rule? Would your bf accompany you to one, just as an observer, if that activity was followed by him getting his rocks off when you get home? Can you do intercourse w a condom? Could you do mutual masturbation?
Love withers under constraint; its very essence is liberty. It is compatible neither with envy, jealousy or fear. It is there most pure, perfect and unlimited when its votaries live in confidence, equality and unreserve. -- Shelley
There's no lying in polyamory!
I'm a 58 year old woman with 2 partners:
miss pixi, my live-in gf, 36 (together since Jan '09)
Ginger, bf, 61, married, lives nearby (together since Jan '12)
Last edited by Magdlyn; 10-31-2010 at 12:58 PM.