I finally took the leap
I've believed that humans have the ability to love more than one person for the longest time, it's the reason we have the open marriage. However, I didn't actually believe I did, but after four years with my boyfriend I finally admitted that I love him, and vice versa. I feel like I'm officially polyamorous all of a sudden.
However, now I don't know what to do as my boyfriend hardly has any free time so while we talk on the phone every day, I only actually get to see him once every month, if that. So I still wind up sitting at home doing nothing, which defeats the purpose of my open marriage.
It feels like I'd be cheating on him now if I go and date. So now this admission of love has brought me a little more stress and I'm not sure what to do. I mean it seems silly to find a third person, but I definitely don't want to be sitting around waiting to him when he has the time every few months. STRESS!!