Over the last few days I've been feeling a little better about some things in my life, I think I'm finally starting to accept that J doesn't return my feelings and likely never will. It wasn't a process I could rush, as much as I might wish I could have. I still love her, I probably always will, but the time has come to move on.
I'm happy to have the love of my wonderful wife Tonberry and to know that there are people who support us both here and IRL. I'm sure that some day I'll meet someone again (I've been joking that I need to find a redhead to make Sean and a good friend of mine jealous, or to start a collection of hair colours) who will be interested in me as more than a friend, I just have to be patient and put myself out there a little more.