Up and down
I know P can't replace me. So we do I have so much fear and empty tonight? Is it because he took her to do something she loves, and I feel replaced in the moment?
Is it because of the recent realization of how pathetic my own life is with her removed from me?
I am so scared. I can't explain it. I always used to see us sitting on a porch swing 50 years from now, laughing at each other as we fall apart, and asking her if she remembers where I left my teeth.... and I feel like it is slipping away.
There is this part of me that wishes "I'd never let this happen", But deep down, I know that either I let her be who she is, or lose her forever.
My bed is going to be so cold tonight, I don't want to sleep.
The more you judge, the less you love
The only common thread in all my failed relationships, is ME.