RP...With Mono moving in you will now be able to put away that little bit of gas money each week (from going back & forth to OH) & go to LoveMore NEXT year! With gas prices being sky high (nearly $1.10 per Litre here) it shouldn't take long to save the money, lol.
Through this whole process I think you've learned that YOU need to take care of YOU or you can't take care of anyone else. You need that downtime in order to recharge your batteries so you won't be all atwitter about the smaller stuff which then means you'll be calmer for the larger stuff.
I wish I were going to LovingMore as well but with the way things are at work right now it just isn't feasible *sigh*.
There are as many ways to do polyamory as there are people practicing it!