The fantasy thing is a bit of a red flag to me. No one in real life can be treated as if they are a fantasy. They will be real, emotions and all. Poly isn't about it being nice to have someone to use as a toy. It's about being there for birthdays, illness, when a pet dies... at least to me anyways. I am struggling to see how poly will be useful to you at this point in time. You don't seem to be at a point where you will gain more.. it seems that it will cause set backs more than gains for both of you.
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