My coworker said to me today, "I love listening to you talk because you live a very happy life."
It hasn't always been the case, but lately? Absolutely.
So lets see, I've been out of the house for a while so there's a lot to catch up on. It's late, so I'll probably ramble on. But it will be fun, so here we go:
Lamnidae and I had a lovely time at the coffee shop on Tuesday. She's absolutely beautiful, and such a joy to talk with. It was very nice to have someone understanding to talk to, and I'm very glad to be able to offer her support as well. She's just down the road too! I can't wait to see her again, and I hope this is the beginning of a good friendship!
Mr Unicorn has finally joined the forums, though who knows if he'll ever post! We have had an incredibly good week together, full of connection and laughter. We were chasing rainbows this afternoon in the car, and the whole situation reminded me that there's absolutely no one else in the world who takes such delight in my silliness. I absolutely adore him!
MBG surprised me this afternoon with a flurry of awesome texts that made me grin like a fiend. Not leave the house indeed. *scoff*
I came home Tuesday night to a very heartwarming e-mail from Zen, who said he finally read this blog and that it made him feel much more comfortable with the whole situation. There were a number of things said that really touched me, and it made me cry. The thing that I appreciated the most was that he made sure to point out that he thinks the dedication to open communication that I have with Mr. Unicorn is very healthy. I thought that observation spoke volumes about his character, and it just adds to the growing list of things I like about him.
Zen lives over an hour away, in the town we're commuting to. He's scheduled to work for nearly two weeks straight, so there was no chance of seeing him this weekend. In order to get some time in with him, it was decided that I should spend the night on Thursday for convenience's sake. I'd never spent a night away from Mr Unicorn before. Our bedtime rituals of reconnection and love and then listening to him fall asleep is my favorite part of my day. Spending the night away felt like a big step, bigger than anything else I've done so far. I don't regret it.
Zen was tired, but amazingly considerate and attentive all evening. I love making him laugh, because he's so serene most of the time, and his eyes just crinkle with mirth. He's nearly a foot taller than I am and his lashes are so long that his eyes look really dark when we're just standing around. I'm always so startled when I'm face to face with him and I see that they're such a very clear blue.
He watches me intently, and I'm not sure I've ever felt such a desire to observe in a person before. Often when I say something that surprises him, he'll stop and turn his head just so as he thinks about it for a moment, fitting it into his worldview. Often he'll repeat it back to me in his own words, asking if he's gotten it right, and it's clear that he's understood the deeper meaning behind my simple statements. It makes him a very good conversationalist, and a phenomenal listener.
There's something about him that's been healing hurts I didn't know I'd been living with. Things I thought were okay that have just been blossoming under his attention. I feel more relaxed, happier, and even safer. I feel championed by him, protected, cared for, and cherished in a very uncommon way. He expresses so much through his actions and I find it so beautiful to watch. I feel so privileged to be able to get to know him.