Ive began keeping a calander of the important things (to me) that LR and I share together each day. Its helping me see that she isnt abandoning me when she puts her focus on GG. There is a certain power in knowing that I can tell her " LR I need your attention for a min".
I ASSUMED that if she was busy doing things with/about GG then I had no right to be a part of it or ask for a moment. I felt that I had to just sit it out "alone" till she had time for me again. Just like I had to do with my mother. Felt like I had to wait of her to have time for me again.
Things are not where I want them to be but there not as bad as they could be either. Ill keep my head up and my eyes open.
" NO WORDDIES BE HAPPY"- My 2 year old baby girl