I am. I am working through it. I appreciate everything everyone here has said. I think the hardest part was not given a vote or a chance. I have talked to many friends and just trying to find the positive in the things I am doing. I really am... just when you are the dumped one without the vote and because someone didn't understand or try to understand... I still hurt. It isn't that I rely on someone else for my happiness.... I just feel an empty space where he was... You all are right that poly relationships are harder because the communication was broken by someone else, but the communication was the important thing... i think that is the hardest thing to accept... being silenced.
I keep clinging to my daily activities and I guess it is getting better. I am lucky i have a good support system.. . Thanks for the words of encouragement.