The idea of swinging/casual sex brings up bad emotions/anxiety, as it pertains to me. I think it might stem from an incident when I was 18. It was overall pretty innocent and mild, just a lot of making out, but it was with a stranger and the next day I freaked out with what I had allowed myself to do so easily (not even any alcohol in sight). The guy was nice and called me a few days later and wanted to go out, we did and just I wasnít that into him, so now I was freaked out and feeling guilty for leading him on. To this day I canít go back to the place this took place, just driving by it give me bad vibes. Now is it reminders of incident that gets to me, the whole idea of casual intimacies or the fact that I know I am capable of casual when I donít think I should be?
I donít have a problem with other people who do it, just donít ask me to join in.