Tonight, L and I have been talking via Facebook chat system
We actually play acted a bit. She acted like she and I were boyfriend and girlfriend, and each were married to someone else.
Anyway, we made some progress this way. And it helped to eliminate some of the yelling and screaming issues we have when we speak verbally.
I am getting closer and closer to being "ok" with a lot more. It will still take some time, but I'm closer than ever before.
The honest truth is this though: The thought of them going to a hotel room together, while I am sitting down poolside.......totally turns me on. The thought of them going on a date while I am at work....scares the hell out of me.
But I'll work through it. I want her happy. and her D makes her happy. I know that I make her happy as well. She has smiled more in the last 3 weeks, than she has in about 3 months prior. That, alone, is worth the whoel thing.