Be strong! It definitely sounds like he didn't treat you right, and made you believe you didn't deserve to be treated right.
You're probably dependent on him and miss him, and everything, I can tell it's very hard being away from him, but I want to support you with that. It was very brave of you to kick him out, you were right to. Stand by it, don't let him back, he's hurting you and you need to be away from him to recover.
I know you already know all of that, but I'm hoping that hearing it again will give you more strength to keep him away from you.