Originally Posted by MindfulAgony
It is true that ignorance is bliss. But, I'd rather live life fully than be ignorant. Because I am much more closely in touch with who I am, what I need, and what I am feeling, I am both happier and more sad. However, I am more self-aware, fulfilled and purposeful (or "full of purpose").
Saddness is a 1000 times more tolerable in this state than it was without that self-understanding.
It is so strange for me to have put myself in this situation....I mean, seriously, who in their right mind would do this??!
BUT, I have to agree, that the whole experience is where it is at...and if somehow, the experience opens me up to more confidence and self-actualization and understanding...then maybe, just maybe it will have been worth it.
The trouble is....how do we know until we are able to have such hindsight?
For now, I will try to invite the moments and be in the present and to NOT freak out if I don't know/understand what the hell is going on!!