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Old 09-13-2010, 03:29 AM
DharmaBum23 DharmaBum23 is offline
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Originally Posted by MonoVCPHG View Post
Sorry your feeling so bad my friend. I don't know what else to say other than hopefully tomorrow brings a great and pleasant surprise

Thank you. I just can't help but to get mad and that makes me sad. Being there for my SO should be enough in and of itself. I should feel this "glow" that makes sacrificeing for my SO worth it.

I don't feel that glow. I just feel hollow and empty and vaguely stupid.

At least I have art. I spent some time this evening watching something about the Medicis tonight. Some of the work they sponsored brought me to tears.

If poly gave me that, even once, I would say it was worth it. After watching that movie I think that I might be directing my energies improperly. More later. Good night.
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