A momentary freak-out
I'm feeling completely stupid and paranoid for worrying, but I am.
Tonberry left Saturday evening to go see her boyfriend for the first time. She checked in to say she arrived at her first transfer on the way, and since then, over a day later, I haven't had any contact.
I'm having to wonder if part of this isn't the fact that maybe it was at the moment she stepped on the bus was the moment it really sunk in that all of this is real. It's not flirting online, it's not "if you could be with someone, who would it be" fantasizing. It could also be that I had a stressful day at work yesterday, who knows?
I think I just need the proverbial slap upside the head, someone other than myself to tell me that she's just having a great time with Sean and that's why she hasn't called, and that Wednesday morning when I see her she'll be safe and happy. That I shouldn't start worrying because when I worry I nearly always get carried away and end up getting stressed out over nothing. I can tell myself those things all I want, but it doesn't make much of a difference coming from me.