Sage, just from my VERY neophyte beginnings, I can say that I have NEVER felt Jealousy before, like I have lately. The only thing that has changed is that we are now poly, so I have to draw the same conclusion.
The highs are so high and the lows are so low and all encompassing. WHAT's worse than that is that someone else's is seeing those lows - seeing you be that low and vulnerable - up close and personal. For me, that has been the biggest adjustment. It was one thing for my husband to know my vulnerabilities so intimately, but now, someone else knows them too. Blech!
Thankfully, the ups seem to counteract the lows....for now... although there have been 3 lows in the span of a two week period so maybe they are catching up.
Tonight we all enjoyed a nice walk and some hanging time and some good laughs. It was nice and shall be savoured....at least for a day or so!