Wow, great feedback. Thank you.
I think that I may have not been framing things right lately. I 'KNOW' that I am included in all this, yet the reptile brain kept pushing through....and still does...although I am trying to put a kabosh on it.
Sometimes it feels like all the weight is so on my shoulders, and I need to breathe and let go of some of that weight. Pretty logical right? It is such a strange mix of feelings - wanting it to all work, yet not really being okay with it at the same time. I WANT to be okay with it, but at times, I am not. I am working hard though, so the payoff has GOT to come!
Thanks again for all your help.