I want to have something to say to make you feel better, some great words of advice. But all I can do is send a long distance hug and tell you Karma and I are thinking of you. I'm sorry you are going through this. Sometimes a little time to yourself is the best medicine. Especialy when you feel you have no answers and no where to turn.
I'm glad Mono was there for you and I hope you and PN get a chance to catch your breath and work things out.